Although I absolutely love Hollywood Undead and am so excited to be going to their show on Wednesday at Hooligans.......

( Click for photo <3 )

I still text my ex-boyfriend after everything he's done.
He apologized and wants to be friends, although the timing of it seems weird.
If I told any of my friends this, I wouldn't hear the end of it and just get looks of disgust.
Deep down, I still have feelings for him.

I'm not sure if it's because i'm lonely or not.
But i've decided to stop initiating conversations with him.
Maybe that will help?

I want to drop out of college.

Tomorrow I just might do it. I don't have the strength to fight it anymore.

I think I might be pregnant...



That's the real reason I've been pushing you away.

One of his friends asked him if he noticed he was grinning ear to ear all weekend.
When I found out...
I was so overcome with emotion that I cried.

I'm in love with you. It makes me so happy that you're that happy too.

number one.       i want to participate in postsecret through texts.
                           but i'm too scared.

number two.        [ugh. this one sounds angsty teenager.]
                            when i come home work on sundays and fall asleep 
                            instead of spending time with family it's not only because i'm exhausted.
                            it's because i hate being constantly put down by my mother.
                            somedays, i wanna punch her in the face.[i'd never do it though.]
                      
number three.      i'm nineteen.
                            my curfew is 10:30.
                            i feel this is one of the reasons why i have such a hard time keeping boyfriends.

Current Location: la casa.
Current Music: nsync.♥

this song is changing everything, my life, as I sit here, right now, listening to it again and again. I can't explain it...If I try I'll never stop.

i. I feel like I am annoying when I am wordy.
ii. I am officially offended.
iii. I feel like I'm about to explode.
iv. I will never master the 'art' of crocheting.
v. I feel too old for my age.
vi. by the end of this week, I at least want four things: to be done knitting this scarf, to have gotten at least one piece of schoolwork done, to get some weed, and to have a smile on my face (possibly on Friday).

sorry for ranting here, again.

i am not completely over you, and i don't think i ever will be. you are set in stone in my heart forever. :( i'm so sorry for everything. i guess your mom was right what she thought about me, your parents knew me better than i knew myself. i will never stop thinking about you and what could of been. now it's gone forever and i'm sorry for that.

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